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Tuesday, June 21, 2011

A Vicious Cycle

Preface: Yesterday I was walking a pair of dogs, taking them around a loop. I came to a street which I suspected was a cul-de-sac (that what it looked like, anyway) and began going down it. Let's preface the next event by saying that I don't know much about dogs. I don't often walk dogs, I have cats, and so I really don't know very much about them. But that's not to say I don't like them. I'm totally cool with dogs. But what I'm trying to say here is that I really have no concept of what one might call, "Dog Etiquette." So there is indeed a distinct possibility that the following event was justified, and was absolutely my fault.
I, thinking that this street was a cul-de-sac, thought I might just cut through someone's lawn so I could get back to where I needed to be. It turns out it was not a cul-de-sac, but simply a street which turned abruptly right, which turn I was unaware of. I stopped on a lawn immediately right of the lawn of a man washing his car. It was then that one of the dogs I was walking decided to poop. I had a bag and everything, so I cleaned up the mess, but I was there for quite some time (relatively. a couple minutes), trying to get the dogs to move. As I started into this guy's back lawn, he stopped me saying something akin to, "Excuse me. This is my property. This is not your property. Please walk around. This is not your property. Please walk around." I was just about to ask if it was okay if I just walked through, but something told me that wouldn't be a good idea. So I simply said, "Okay," to which he responded with a repeated, "walk around," and to which I responded with a, "Yes sir."
Let's preface this moment a bit. I live in a neighborhood where the kids are completely fine with coming over into our lawn and playing in it. Granted, that frosts me just a little bit (which it really shouldn't, because) and granted, I do not own the lawn. So I have both no idea what it is like to own my own lawn, and already have a spot of contempt for people who play on a lawn which I simply live near and do not own. So I can understand why this guy didn't want me on his lawn. However, I have a father who, one Halloween night, saw kids traipsing on our lawn, immediately after something had been done for it (maybe it had been fertilized or something). He was not happy about this, and proceeded to yell at them to get off the lawn, which they did. I'm not sure that he was more concerned for their safety or for the preservation of the lawn. In any case, I think lawns are to be played on. If you have a perfectly good lawn, it's a waste of space to manicure it meticulously and allow no one to be or play on it. But that's not what I want to talk about.
On the way down the street after the encounter, I thought up a fair amount of biting retorts I could've shot back at the guy, because I was a little bit peeved. Not because I had though about all this in the few seconds it took me to leave, mind you, but just because I felt like he was treating me like an idiot. But I've contemplated it over the following 14 hours or so, and come to the conclusion that it could very well have been my fault, he could've been doing his best to be kind, and I just interpreted it the wrong way.
Now. That was the preface. Let me introduce you to what I foresee as the problem I have found in today's society, thinking about this experience.
The problem: How many of us, when we are angry, blow off steam with other anger? We catch road rage, we act like a jerk to someone we have no negative relationship with, or we just punch stuff. Like a wall. All of this behavior is, at its root, destructive. To respond in such a way is just going to make someone else angry. The person on the road you cut off or honked vehemently at is going to be angry at you. The person you were a jerk to is going to feel hurt and offended, and when someone asks about it, they may lash out. Whoever owns the wall you put a hole through will not be happy with you. You see the problem? What is this person going to do when you respond angrily and they or their possessions are in the way? They will likely respond angrily to your response, doing something similar to what you did, and affecting more people. When these responses come in the form of a one-on-one argument, I think the effect just compounds. You are angry already when someone retorts angrily to something you said, and you become more angry and respond in kind. Violence can ensue. This is what could have happened with the man whose lawn I was about to cross, if I had been simultaneously more quick-witted and more stupid. We could have gotten into a serious argument.
In any case, the fact is, when you are NOT having an argument (which is not a good thing anyway), and you pass your anger on to other people, they can pass their anger on to others, and they to others, and on and on.
UNLESS there is someone to stop the cycle. This is where you and I come in. I would suggest that when these things happen to you, and you are the subject of an angry outburst or commentary, that you calm down, breathe, and somehow let the anger flow away from you without distributing it to the closest host. If you are reading this and are not religious, please forgive me for the following comment; it seems to help me. If you are having real trouble, pray. Ask Heavenly Father if he can help you siphon the anger  off somehow. If you can break the chain in any way, you can stop a lot of people from getting angry. You can stop the lives of many around you from deteriorating for a day, or a week, or a month. I believe that to make this attempt in our own lives is worthwhile. And its a way you can potentially effect (or rather, NOT effect) many, many people. Thanks for reading.
*Clarification* My mother informed me that: BTW: the Halloween incident happened as we had just seeded our lawn and dad had put some tape around so the kids wouldn't walk up the newly seeded lawn. If that helps.
It does indeed help me to understand the situation more.

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